Looking for love.....all in the wrong directions.

Hi there , its me again.......,, sensitive issue huh? whatever..... i'm just writing my view..

Ok...where shall i start, love...what is love thou? Is it the feeling when the one past u by..u noticed your heart beat faster? or suddenly there's butterflies in your stomach? what ever it is or how u defined it...we all know what is love...... or are they lust?. I don't know ...u tell me.

Love ....is it just between man and woman? what about parents and child, sisters, friends?I believe each of us agreed that we all at some point of our life needs love, in fact love is the one that brings us here, HE loves me, so here i am, breathing peacefully while conveying my thoughts.

Love in the wrong direction, we all have bumped into it.

Situation 1:
He's giving us all that we've have, everything that we've taken for granted for all the time.We keep asking for more.....and all that we wanted is .....more. Have we ever thanks him for all that we have? I doubt that. Yet we still believe that He is the one we run to when the going get tough, but we give credit to ourselves when thing goes according to plan. He gave us guidance, but do we obey? I doubt that one too. One are so busy occupying one selves for the love of unpromising momentary happiness, wealth and fame. One grieves for the lost of their loves one, their fetish lifestyles and their majestic status, but i wonder did one ever grieves for the lost of love that one should have towards THE ONE. But still he loves us dearly, coz if he doesn't , you wont be here reading my blog.

Situation 2:
A friend of mine had just deliver her first child, I can still recall her sentence" Isn't he the most beautiful things you've ever lay your eyes on to?". Yes agreed, i was also enchanted by his innocent brownish eyes, the soft tender skin of that bundle of joy.But time will flies and he'll grows, he'll break your favourite vase, throw tantrum every now and then and even put the cat in the washing machine. But is she able to slap him as a punishment for his nuisance or she let him get away with it just because he is "the most beautiful things she ever lay her eyes on to"? I dont know, i've never been in her shoes. What happen if 25 yrs down the road the so called " most beautiful things" walk out of her life. Will she regrets the amount of love that she had given him?.Is she looking for love all in the wrong direction? I dont know, you justify.

On the other side, i know someone who gave up her child custody, to the ex...... less than 2 years after she deliver the bundle of joy. All she wanted is a new man, a new life, occasional visit to the daughter or by the daughter, and a fix monthly allowance from the daughter when she reached financial security and claim her position in the professional world, where the fact is for the past 20 yrs, she couldnt correctly recall in which year she gave birth to the baby girl. Was she looking for love in the wrong direction?

And the baby, couldnt understand why for the 1st quarter of her life, she was not loved by the one person that she want to be loved by, she couldn't understand why she grow up with strangers and raised up by strangers. Only after so many rejection by the one who shouldn't rejected her, she began to realised...." she don't want me so i don't need her too, i need only myself". So she woke up from her sleep and start to live her life the way she want it, play by her own rule, trying to be tough when deep down , at one corner of her empty heart, she was too....looking for love all in the wrong direction. Which lead to the 3rd situation.

Situation 3.
We all are too familiar with this life drama, girl meet boy, boy meet girl, love at the first sight and live happily ever after....except its not the case of happily ever after, its doom ever after. There is this girl i know, she is smart, strong willing, independent and she almost everything a metropolitan girl wanted to be. But she fall in love and she is no longer the smart girl she used to be. She lets the emotion runs deep, and lets emotion take control over her rational. Sustaining years of emotional abused and self destruction just for the sake of having the wrong kind of love.Only when she had hit the very bottom of her life, where she feels like its the end of her everything she was save by the right kind of love. The one that she purposely avoid due to the lack of another wrong kind of love. Is she at first looking for love in the wrong direction. I don't know?

The Truth is, even i dont know what is the right direction for us to be looking for love. The definition of true love for you might be different from me. But i know now that there is 1 love that is true, the one that stands beyond the test of time, the one that stands above the difficulties of life, the one who never demands too much in return of the vast favour.The one that always give but rarely takes.

And I also know that for us to know what is the true love, is for us to start to love our self.

***********KORORO**************

The duck and the devil

There was a little boy visiting his grandparents on their farm.He was given a slingshot to play with out in the woods. He Practiced in the woods, but he could never hit the target. Getting A little discouraged, he headed back for dinner. As he was Walking back he saw Grandma's pet duck.Just out of impulse, he let the slingshot fly, hit the duck Square in the head, and killed it.
He was shocked and grieved. In a panic, he hid the dead duck in the wood pile, only to see His sister watching! Sally had seen it all, but she said nothing.

After lunch the next day Grandma said, "Sally, let's wash the Dishes." But Sally said, "Grandma, Johnny told me he wanted to help in The kitchen." Then she whispered to him, "Remember the duck?" So Johnny did the dishes.Later that day, Grandpa asked if the children wanted to go Fishing and Grandma said, "I'm sorry but I need Sally to help make Supper." Sally just smiled and said," Well that's all right because Johnny told Me he wanted to help." She whispered again, "Remember the duck?" So Sally Went fishing and Johnny stayed to help.

After several days of Johnny doing both his chores and Sally's, He finally couldn't stand it any longer. He came to Grandma and confessed that he had killed the duck. Grandma knelt down, gave him a hug, and said, "Sweetheart, I know. You see, I was standing at the window and I saw the whole thing, but because I love you, I forgave you. I was just wondering how long You would let Sally make a slave of you.


**********Thought for the day and every day thereafter************************
Whatever is in your past, whatever you have done... And the devil Keeps throwing it up in your face (lying, cheating, debt, fear, bad Habits, hatred, anger, bitterness, etc.) ....whatever it is....You need to know that God was standing at the window and He saw the whole thing..... He has seen your whole life. He wants you to know that He loves you and that you are forgiven.He's just wondering how long you will let the devil make a slave Of you.The great thing about God is that when you ask for forgiveness, He Not only forgives you, but He forgets . It is by God's grace and Mercy that we are saved.Go ahead and make the difference in someone's life today. Share This with a friend and always remember : God is at the window.


*******KORORO******

STAR FISH

Once upon a time there was a wise man who used to go to the ocean to do his writing. He had a habit of walking on the beach before he began his work. One day he was walking along the shore.


As he looked down the beach, he saw a human figure moving like a dancer. He smiled to himself to think of someone who would dance to the day. So he began to walk faster to catch up. As he got closer, he saw that it was a young man and the young man wasn't dancing, but instead he was reaching down to the shore, picking up something and very gently throwing it into the ocean. As he got closer he called out, "Good morning! What are you doing?" The young man paused, looked up and replied, " Throwing starfish in the ocean." "I guess I should have asked, why are you throwing starfish in the ocean?" "The sun is up, and the tide is going out, and if I don't throw them in they'll die."


"But, young man, don't you realize that there are miles and miles of beach, and starfish all along it. You can't possibly make a difference!" The young man listened politely. Then bent down, picked up another starfish and threw it into the sea, past the breaking waves and said, "It made a difference for that one. "There is something very special in each and every one of us. We have all been gifted with the ability to make a difference, and if we can become aware of that gift, we gain through the strength of our visions the power to shape the future. We must each find our starfish. And if we throw our stars wisely and well, the world will be blessed.


From a friend, to a friend, by a friend.......*****kororo*****

YOU and i collide

It is another day, when i feel like standing on the top of the highest tower, watching the sun set, passing by.But with the different view n perspective bout life, love & lived your life.Feel so nice when you can feel the wind touches your skin n it feels even better the moment i step out of my own life just to see the world n life itself.

What am i talking about?. I heard you say. But i'm glad that i took the right turn.And i'm blessed that life have start to take the shape, as i want life to.Sure, i've took a few wrong turns last time n endup in such a mess where i though i could never found the way out. Just when i thought i've lost my last hope and my courage are breaking, HE took me under HIS wing.
Showing me the other side of life,the side in which i purposely avoid thru the whole duration of my journey. Life was easy back then ..... but meaningless.Life was great back then....but something is missing.

I found myself scared, confused and tanggled with the fact that He've taken me into his arm,can't bring myself at ease.I'm scared to know that i'm always in His mind. Keep asking " why did u choose me?". Still the question remained unanswered.But everywhere i turn i found signs that He have chosen me. It was hard, it was difficult and it was scary at first. Coz i still love the old me, i still love being the crazy me...the irresponsible, selfish, hardheaded, strong willing me.I was and still is scared, out of my own judgement, i try to run away. But i know, i can run or hide but i may not escape from my destiny.

So now i choose to stop running, but i'll take baby steps till i fully grown, at the phased and speed that offer me comfort, no matter what other's told me on how i should actually run the show.I still trying to fit the old me into the new me so that i might not end up trying to choose between the two.

Thank you, for all this. And thank you, i know that YOU'll always be there for me and guide me, and although i still haven't found the answers for all the questions, i'm glad that out of the darkness that have clouded me and all the doubt that have filled my mind, i found YOU and I collided.


******KORORO*******

Dare to be different

Dare to be different! hmmmmmmm what a tittle right?
Actually its is easier to said than done.Why am i having this blog? Coz i like to tell stories ( i might as well become a story teller- but unfortunately that's not the case).
Another question.... why did i choose this subject matter as the maiden post. Well becaused lately i've been noticing how different i am compare to other typical 26yrs old asian chick around.I've noticed that i was different since the day i've started to remember things, but it never struck my 3lb brain its going to be hard( i'm talking bout "hard" hard here...not 'cheesecake' hard).

He're the scenario.... a 26yrs old lass, fell of a bike( bicycle not motorcycle), with her bleeding toe walk back to the office, n laugh to her subordiantes.Why did i say this is different......well to my knowledge, any other lass who get caught in the condition might as well walk back to the office n firing ammo to her subordinates for not warning her of the break mulfunction.But to me "teen age" n youth is once in a life time moment where over the time those crazy stuff that u do will fade away. So why should i be mad to my staff.....i might as well laugh about it n keep it in my " been there done that " life jar.

The thruth is.....some people there are so afraid to be comfortable in their own skin, they let all the sweetnes n beauty of life slipped away. Some times we are too concern bout what other's might say bout us that we start to put other's happiness before us. I personnaly felt pity for them, they spends half of their fortune trying to find the " eternal beauty" when they dont know what is the real meaning of the word. To me...... beautiful did not lies in the ''visible matters" it lies deep down. its how u feel about your own self. How u feel comfortable being U.Believe it or not, the moment u start to acknowledge yourself, u'll start to glow n people will notice how beautiful u are n only some who truely smart will noticed how special u are.....and that' s the real beauty.

So sisters why wait, take charge of your life,a long as u hurt nobody, there's no sin in trying to be u. Yea....i know, the air will start to fill with gossip n bad mouthing bout you, but u know what,,,just forgive them coz they are actually "envy"ing u.Have mercy on their poor souls, or the most...just tell them " talk to the hand coz the ear aint listening". Try it....trust me.....its worth it........ KORORO