Summary of the last weekend. There’s only two issues that I’m going to highlight it here. One is something got to do with money..money..money ( sing it like the Apprentice theme song!). Well the other one, is the recent progress about the guy that I met offshore. For easy reference, let me just label him as AHZ.
The accountant quit her job middle of last month, since then, the financial aspect of the company become chaotic. I receive my pay check quite late last month, left alone my allowance. Then I constantly receiving phone call that contain very much similar sentence that sounded something like this “ Dear our valued customer, we are blaa…blaaa.bla..to remind u that your bla..bla..bla…payment is due on tooooot”. Isn’t it funny coz most of the time the flowrate of the “fulus” that is debited into your account is much much slower than the amount that is credited from.
And my first love (that is my beloved Gen2), needed to be sent for major maintenance ( which gonna cost me somewhere around RM 300), and I just change one of the tire that cost me almost RM 200 ( for heaven’s sake, I just change the whole set on August- congratulation ita- u get your self a new tire for driving up the divider! )
Try to ring some frenz who owe me a little, the funny things is, none were picking up! Damn, this is one of the reason why I hate to lend frenz some fulus. And why I hate to borrowed from some. As I always mentioned “ when it come to money, frenz were no longer frenz”.
The moment I realized bout this fact of life few years back, I’ve started to develop a new habit, which is “cari duit sebanyak mungkin selagi muda”. Sorry guys, I practically lost almost everything a little over a year ago, so I’m in the midst of trying to get back all that I once have. So u might see the materialistic side of me. But still, I feel like kicking my own butt ( if I could) for being too nice. Baru nak ader saving sikit, the moment frenz come and make that pity face asking for some cash, my heart melted! Damn it ita…….think about yourself first!
As promise, the second part, is about the AHZ guy. Due to positive moral support that I’ve receive from u guys, ( and because I’m tired of thinking “ if he really the rite one, just give it a shot, and because I’ m feeling the pressure from weight of the things that remain unspoken) , I wrote him a message, in his frendster. Just a nice email, that contain issues relating to the project that I’m working on (and him to monitor) –and I swear to GOD, there’s no such words as “love”, “like”, “ adore” or anything that convey the same meaning for that matters.
I’ve been waiting for days, and finally, when he log in into his account (last 24 hr) he didn’t reply. Hmmmmmm..i should have known. I’m sucks at this! My frenz say that I need to stop being too honest and straightforward, that I should learn to dance around the bush. Looking back, I wonder if there’s anything wrong with my approach. I befriend with the one that trigger my interest for a while, after sometimes, when I become more “cozy”, I normally ask him out and tell him “ is it ok if I would like to know you better?”
Its not that I’m falling in love, it just that I just wanna see if there is this thing that I called compatibility between us both. But then, for the past 1 year, I’ve approached (with the same method) 3 guys, but none was successful. The 1st guys, had some family issue, which later he decided to forget about relationship issue for a while, the 2nd guy- well he kindda have a thing for other girl while the 3rd one- he’s taken!
Owh…come on give me break will ya! . I’m tired of screening for the suitable alpha male to lead my someday pack! Too tired that most of the time when people ask me “ biler nak kawen?” I just told them “ entah la, malas nak piker!”
Sometimes, I’m just sooo sick of this “trying to find the suitable one (not the perfect one since I believe that there’s no such things as perfect!), so sick that I’ve even thinking of just gamble jer la settle down with anybody, maybe something is better than nothing . Yer ker???...Boleh ker???? .I guess the last guy that approach me, I turn him down because, he’s 5 yr my junior!!!!
Or I just put up an advertisement that read “ Single lady looking for serious relationship, 26yrs old ( turns 27 in few days!), not ugly but not really a super model, funny, witty, smart ..bla..bla..” Wow…..what a confession, ita ! ...ANYONE???!!!!!
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