Looking for love.....all in the wrong directions.

Hi there , its me again.......,, sensitive issue huh? whatever..... i'm just writing my view..

Ok...where shall i start, love...what is love thou? Is it the feeling when the one past u by..u noticed your heart beat faster? or suddenly there's butterflies in your stomach? what ever it is or how u defined it...we all know what is love...... or are they lust?. I don't know ...u tell me.

Love ....is it just between man and woman? what about parents and child, sisters, friends?I believe each of us agreed that we all at some point of our life needs love, in fact love is the one that brings us here, HE loves me, so here i am, breathing peacefully while conveying my thoughts.

Love in the wrong direction, we all have bumped into it.

Situation 1:
He's giving us all that we've have, everything that we've taken for granted for all the time.We keep asking for more.....and all that we wanted is .....more. Have we ever thanks him for all that we have? I doubt that. Yet we still believe that He is the one we run to when the going get tough, but we give credit to ourselves when thing goes according to plan. He gave us guidance, but do we obey? I doubt that one too. One are so busy occupying one selves for the love of unpromising momentary happiness, wealth and fame. One grieves for the lost of their loves one, their fetish lifestyles and their majestic status, but i wonder did one ever grieves for the lost of love that one should have towards THE ONE. But still he loves us dearly, coz if he doesn't , you wont be here reading my blog.

Situation 2:
A friend of mine had just deliver her first child, I can still recall her sentence" Isn't he the most beautiful things you've ever lay your eyes on to?". Yes agreed, i was also enchanted by his innocent brownish eyes, the soft tender skin of that bundle of joy.But time will flies and he'll grows, he'll break your favourite vase, throw tantrum every now and then and even put the cat in the washing machine. But is she able to slap him as a punishment for his nuisance or she let him get away with it just because he is "the most beautiful things she ever lay her eyes on to"? I dont know, i've never been in her shoes. What happen if 25 yrs down the road the so called " most beautiful things" walk out of her life. Will she regrets the amount of love that she had given him?.Is she looking for love all in the wrong direction? I dont know, you justify.

On the other side, i know someone who gave up her child custody, to the ex...... less than 2 years after she deliver the bundle of joy. All she wanted is a new man, a new life, occasional visit to the daughter or by the daughter, and a fix monthly allowance from the daughter when she reached financial security and claim her position in the professional world, where the fact is for the past 20 yrs, she couldnt correctly recall in which year she gave birth to the baby girl. Was she looking for love in the wrong direction?

And the baby, couldnt understand why for the 1st quarter of her life, she was not loved by the one person that she want to be loved by, she couldn't understand why she grow up with strangers and raised up by strangers. Only after so many rejection by the one who shouldn't rejected her, she began to realised...." she don't want me so i don't need her too, i need only myself". So she woke up from her sleep and start to live her life the way she want it, play by her own rule, trying to be tough when deep down , at one corner of her empty heart, she was too....looking for love all in the wrong direction. Which lead to the 3rd situation.

Situation 3.
We all are too familiar with this life drama, girl meet boy, boy meet girl, love at the first sight and live happily ever after....except its not the case of happily ever after, its doom ever after. There is this girl i know, she is smart, strong willing, independent and she almost everything a metropolitan girl wanted to be. But she fall in love and she is no longer the smart girl she used to be. She lets the emotion runs deep, and lets emotion take control over her rational. Sustaining years of emotional abused and self destruction just for the sake of having the wrong kind of love.Only when she had hit the very bottom of her life, where she feels like its the end of her everything she was save by the right kind of love. The one that she purposely avoid due to the lack of another wrong kind of love. Is she at first looking for love in the wrong direction. I don't know?

The Truth is, even i dont know what is the right direction for us to be looking for love. The definition of true love for you might be different from me. But i know now that there is 1 love that is true, the one that stands beyond the test of time, the one that stands above the difficulties of life, the one who never demands too much in return of the vast favour.The one that always give but rarely takes.

And I also know that for us to know what is the true love, is for us to start to love our self.

***********KORORO**************