Although it carries the questions bout life after a devastating incident..but to me...the story tells us about hopes.....hopes that sound and seems too good to be true.
As absurd as it may sound, most of us have no clue how ones live with pain and fear.Some optimist mind who was born in heaven and shipped to this world may said, "owh..how pity...i'm sorry...lets change this world to become a better place" but none of them truely realised that this is life thou.Remember when Mercer ask erica '" how did you put it back together after what happen to yourself?"...She anwers " You don't !..you become someone else"....I have to agree with that.
The things bout some kind of pain is....it will never leave you. In fact it comes in a packages that include fear...and tears. U think that it might not touch u, untill it finally did, and you are no longer the same person that u used to be, and it stays till the day u die. Some whom survived any form of unjusticed done towards them would understands how hard it is to live out the days aftermath, how to become normal again. U've tried...and u keep on trying but u wont be normal like others. Then the only option that left are to put on some mask on your face, and trying so hard to be "Perfect", coz that's is all u have left..being perfect. u try so hard to be perfect that your souls weary and your courage weaken.
You caught between who you was...and who you are now. U are confuse and can't even recognise yourselves anymore. you wish to be the old you, but the pain made you become who you are now. Remember?? " there's so many ways to die, but u have to find a way to live, that's the hardest part!"..remember?. And it is not a subject that you can talk about. The pain and fear forbid you from talking about it. Even if you try, you'll choke.
Erica was lucky, God sent her an angel(Mercer), to watch over her shoulder, to look at her in the eyes and feel the pain she felt, without she's making an effort to say a word bout it. But in this gruesome world...it was a rare case of luck. And if it does happen to any of us survivors, i would have to say.." God must have fancy him/her more than me".
I'm sorry...i'm not whining, neither i'm trying to be weepy bout my fate. It just that i just wanna say " i'm sorry that u could not understand why it is soo difficult for me to get to the other side, as much as you said u understand, i know that u wont...because you were never here on this side of the river."........................."i'm trying and i keep on trying but i couldn't go that far coz of burden that i carried keep pulling my down, and it wont leave me and it never will ".
Some one told me '"time will heal the wound". I guess he forgot that it will heal the wound but it will leave you a scar that remains there forever.The funny things bout this pain is.....it can happen to anyone, instead he chooses u, so you left to linger with a question mark........" why me?"..................
whisper me a wonderfull dream, in which hope that come from HIM, so i can try & make this heart believe, it is the time to lay and sleep, not the time to fear and weep.......
I will be the answer at the end of the line, I will be there for you while you take the time, In the burning of uncertainty, I will be your solid ground, I will hold the balance if you cant look down, If it takes my whole life I wont break I wont bend, It ll all be worth it worth it in the end, Cause I can only tell you what I know, that I need you in my life, When the stars have all gone out, u'll still be burning so bright, Cast me gently into morning, For the night has been unkind, Take me to a place so holy, That I can wash this from my mind, The memory of choosing not to fight,
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verybody has their own difficulty in their own way...thats how's life goes
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